{"id":2672,"date":"2013-03-06T15:00:39","date_gmt":"2013-03-06T20:00:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.old.caraghobrien.com\/book\/?p=2672"},"modified":"2013-03-06T15:00:39","modified_gmt":"2013-03-06T20:00:39","slug":"both-of-us-night-and-day","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/writing\/both-of-us-night-and-day\/","title":{"rendered":"Both of Us, Night and Day"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"NightParis\"I can spend an hour at night laboring over the composition an email or a blog post only to wake up the next morning and find it\u2019s weirdly uppity or just plain pointless.\u00a0 Because of this, I have a hard and fast rule about never sending any emails that might actually matter at night.\u00a0 What\u2019s strange is that I can\u2019t uncoil myself from the snare of writing the insidious late night drafts, even knowing I\u2019m needlessly embroiled.\u00a0 It\u2019s like I\u2019m processing, letting my illogical, instinctual side out to poke around in soggy places, and doing that is more important than sensibly going to bed.<\/p>\n

In a way, this harkens back to the old ex-boyfriend rules of college days, when I unplugged my dead-weight phone and went to eat snacks with the gals down the hall expressly so that I could not call him when my will power and word choice skills were poor.\u00a0 It\u2019s both self-preservation and recognizing the weak, crazy side of me. \u00a0I liked the keyed-up, impetuous me who was sort of self-destructing even as I was saving myself from my phone. \u00a0The boy might not appreciate me, but I<\/em> certainly did.<\/p>\n

This split-life connects to shopping, too.\u00a0 Stores used to close so we could not go in and buy shoes at two in the morning, no matter how gorgeous they looked through the window on our way home from the late movie.\u00a0 Now, no one\u2019s stopping us.\u00a0 Now, the online temptations never cease.\u00a0 Back away, computer.\u00a0 I dare not ask how many of us have taken the fatal step of saving our credit card numbers on our computers so they\u2019re convenient whenever we want to buy.\u00a0 Put it in the cyber basket, fine.\u00a0 But never hit BUY after midnight.<\/p>\n

I admit this split-life thing connects to temptation and the denial of it, but it\u2019s not just that simple.\u00a0 You can\u2019t just say our defenses are down at night.\u00a0 It\u2019s more like we\u2019re two co-dependent sensible and wild people occupying the same body. \u00a0In the morning, we\u2019re all bring on the bluebirds<\/em> and let\u2019s sing with the chubby cartoon mice!<\/em>\u00a0 Past nightfall, we\u2019re moody, vengeful, ice-cream-downing trolls with hairy legs.<\/p>\n

But we\u2019re the same person.<\/p>\n

Don\u2019t get me wrong.\u00a0 I like being a full-emotioned girl. \u00a0It comes in handy for writing fiction. \u00a0But sometimes?\u00a0 It\u2019s a little exhausting. \u00a0Sometimes, I should just go to bed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I can spend an hour at night laboring over the composition an email or a blog post only to wake up the next morning and find it\u2019s weirdly uppity or just plain pointless.\u00a0 Because of this, I have a hard and fast rule about never sending any emails that might actually matter at night.\u00a0 What\u2019s […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4,3],"tags":[63,37],"class_list":["post-2672","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-birthmarked","category-writing","tag-ha","tag-writing-2"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2672","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2672"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2672\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2677,"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2672\/revisions\/2677"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2672"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2672"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.caraghobrien.com\/book\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2672"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}